Alone But Happy

 

Ever heard of the phrase "Alone but happy". Yeah! about that, its a lie. 

Searching and wandering in this infinite expanse of the universe, where you experience the dearth of love and fraternity everyday. 

He had a bright smile, a smile that would attract you from miles apart. It actually did attract all the attention an average high school had to offer. Classmates would gather around him all the time, team mates would always be around him. Seniors, juniors and even teachers would always try to engage with him. 

As the days went by the smile that had become the epitome of joy and serenity, began to fade away, and so did all the attention that came with it. Gone were the days when his smile would attract people, how could it? it was no longer there. Slowly people started to drift apart from him. He was no longer the center of gravity of everything. He had become a loner, an outcast of the high school community. 

She had her own world inside a dark den, which people could not approach. She would often peak outside this den to see what was happening around her. A spectator she was and a spectator she wished to be. She was truly alone and she was not happy and the most fun part about it is that she had no intent of being happy. 

She was carefully watching the events unfold in front of her and there was this certain event that caught her eye. A phenomenon that she could not interpret, it was out of her capacity to understand it. And so it spiked her interest. She closely began to observe what was happening around her. Something made her want to come out of her den and approach a certain someone and eradicate this feeling of emptiness.

No matter how many people were close to him he was always alone from the inside, his life was hollow from the inside. And so this became the reason for his smile to slowly fade away. At first he was only alone from the inside now he was alone from the outside as well.

Her heart was forcing her to reach out to this being causing a state of restlessness in her mind, body and soul. She decided to permanently leave this since now she had found her reason of not being alone anymore.

His heart was still searching and rambling for someone who could make him come out of this state of perpetual loneliness. He needed someone to come and grab his hand before he would drown further in this ocean of misery. 

One day after the last class she stopped at the doorway waiting for everyone to get out. He was coming her way, the class was empty as usual since he was the last one to exit as always. 

A burst of emotions came his way and he began to blush, she too began to blush. for a moment they stared into each others eyes deeply searching each other in them. Then upon noticing they looked away. Though she had just confessed, her heart was now at ease. His loneliness began to vanish and the sun started to come out in his garden of despair. Each ray would bring joy and hope into his forever lonely soul. 

For a moment they both seemed happy, but then their world began to face an upset, just like if you add or subtract something into a perfectly fine system it would bring a catastrophic change bringing everything to a halt and destroying all part of that system.

Their eyes could understand this and so realizing that they could never be one. Tears started to come out of his eyes, she reached out and held his hand, to feel its warmth for the first and last time and it was all as she had imagined a thousand times in her mind. For the very first time in his life he felt he was not alone like there was another part of him. 

She let his hand go, turned around and left. She wanted to cry but what she had just experienced was not something to cry over. She was going to relive this moment again and again in a million life times.

Suddenly as she let her hand go he felt dark and lonely again. Alone, miserable with no one standing by his side. He had experienced the presence of someone else in his life for the very first time, he did not want it to end. 

He began to run and madly shout her name out loud, he begged her to stop, calling out the magic words,

 " Be my sunshine,

    Be my tomorrow

    Be the reason I want to live another day"

She heard him now gone completely mad, upon turning around what she saw filled her heart with profound emotions of never to let him go. He leached onto her, hugging her so tightly.

Even if our worlds fall apart, even if this world fails to accept us together, even if we perish being together. Let's stay like this forever.

He was no longer alone but he was happy.